Why do you write? What got you to tell your story?

Why do you write? What got you to tell your story? 
I wanted to write and have written for a long time. But, was insecure to let others read it. I had ADD and have AADD and mild dyslexia so, it was not easy to write. I knew there were things, I wanted to share but didn’t know how very well. I took a risk one day, I did the best I could and gave what I had written to someone whose opinion, I valued. It never stopped bothering me to try, though I had long given up on the idea of writing. I would write poems at first some children’s books back then. As it turns out he loved the poems; wanted to make them songs. He is in the music business, I didn’t want to do that. That experience taught me something to follow your heart or gut instinct. I never lost that feeling, never went away, I only ignored it. I decided not to anymore though, I had a successful career. 
When I was medically terminated from my job I was, devastated. I wrote for relief of my anxiety to express emotions I couldn’t with, anyone. Because, I had no one to be angry with. It was no one’s fault, not even mine, I got sick. I thought, here I am right back at thinking about, writing again it won’t go away. Yet I did write so poorly, I thought it just wasn’t for me. Because of my learning issues, I had resigned myself to finding another outlet. None of them worked the same way.
So when a tragedy happened in my family during the time, I was trying to find my way back from, being lost in what, I was going to do. I wrote my first book. Never had a rough draft nothing to guide I just told the story. One time, that was it. I found simply concentrating, on the story I want to tell was is the answer that worked and not the punctuation. That is important, though. I had to learn to write the way it works for me. A lot of editing, I had done before I over punctuate out of insecurity. I read a lot of books that helped to learn. I didn’t know it at the time. I started to rewrite stories I read. … and there you go.

They get us into trouble, labels.

 …Live, doing what you want.

The labels I apply to myself have nothing to do with the labels for yourself and vice versa. I think they can be identifiable – common denominators: Gamer, Writer, Male and Female, etc. Though, one might think and feel your label can apply to them also – guilty by association  – which couldn’t be further from truth but, nonetheless, taken personally; it’s another’s lifestyle don’t judge. In reality, it doesn’t have the effect believed to be caused – rubbing off or the unwanted judgement based on the label from others like us, doing the same thing. It’s like reading the cover of a book and pretending to know what it’s about.

Self esteem.

The problem with labels is most often we believe that others need to believe the same thing as us in order for it to count. Power in numbers. What we need to believe about ourselves is true for us. I am asking everyone to believe with me please, that I’m an overnight sensation; I love saying so, to myself and to others because, when you think about it for awhile, doesn’t it create excitement for you also, if it were true? To be honest, I don’t believe overnight sensations actually exist except, in our minds. This is the point, I’m trying to make, reality is in the mind. Mine works for me.

Ask anyone who has ever been labeled that way; they’ll speak of all the hard work they put in beforehand. No one knows about or associates the work with the success. I know, I do it too but I don’t care. I like the energy, the inspiration it gives when I think of someone this way especially, me. I love the idea of a new sensation, feels good. I choose to feel good.

I’ve said all of this to present my New Year’s Resolution: I cannot trip on the labels of others anymore, I’m sticking with mine. People believe what they want to believe, regardless of truth. If it makes them feel better well, alright. We all share the same thoughts and feelings for whatever reasons. Emotions make it good or bad. I am choosing to look for similarities and keep the judging of or from others distant. I think, I’ll be a happier person as a result.